Hey folks, billy here i play guitar and sing in about a quarter of a billion bands haha talk away and dont be too harsh about my silly rants and enjoy!
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Tired
I’m sick of constantly feeling like shit! I don’t even know why I feel this way half the time any more if i’m honest. Seems like the silliest wee things can send my mind running wild and I don’t sleep a wink for days on end. Like a couple of weeks ago me and the mrs were texting and she said “off to bed, goodnight xxx” and because she usually says “i love you” at the end of the day before we go to bed my mind took me to all sorts of crazy places, from thinking “she’s going to leave me next time I see her” to thinking “She’s fucking other people right now and i’m lying here like a twat”. Now, bearing in mind that this is a girl, who i have been with for almost 7 months, we wan’t all the same things out of this relationship and she has never ever given me a single reason to doubt her, i’m at a loss with why i’m being such a paranoid twat all the time. After being so desperately unhappy in previous relationships and being cheated on in each one, I’ve come to expect it i guess. And the amount of happiness she has brought into my life over the past 7 months is honestly unbelievable! I really do love her more than i’ve ever loved any other person, or ever thought i could love another person and the thought of someone else trying to sabotage that makes me feel sick! She is an absolute saint mind you and if i ever do have a crazy thought, i am always able to talk about it with her and she does always put my mind at ease, but i’m terrified that if i don’t stop feeling this way then she’s just going to think i’m not worth the hassle and get shot of me. Sorry about the rant folks, gonna use this for rants more now though, unfollow me if it does bother you (i dont blame you if it does) :)
St leonards looking not to bad for once haha (Taken with instagram)
Vegetarian haggis!
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some men just want to watch the world burn…
Hate how one person can make you feel better than anyone else and completely worthless at the same time :(
Surely I’m not the only one that thinks that exs shouldn’t talk to each other!
fuck, it’s really going to be a long nine weeks :( time to get old billy back for a while i reckon. Where’s the vodka?
Feels like one of those we twats that does nothing but rant about relationships which is never good, but i need to clear my head and get stuff sorted! I’v been cheated on a fair few times before, even Natalie evidently did it and im still terrorfied that Caitlin will follow the same path :( shes given me absolutely no reason to doubt her in the slightest and if im honest we’ve talked about it before and she’s just as mental as me but i cant help constantly freaking out D:…as i said before….i know i sound like a gay boy :P
